I need something to do.

Since I've been back home I've gone through many periods of pointlessness. Other than when I'm hanging out with my friends or at the gym (also with my friends), I'm left with very few choices as far activities go. I can watch TV, play on the computer, read a book or help clean something up. While I enjoy doing these things (well not so much with the cleaning), there are many times (like now for instance) when none of these things appeal to me all that much and I feel the need to do something else.

The problem is I'm not sure what else to do. I used to fill these little boredom periods with getting a snack or something but I'm eating somewhat healthier these days and that's not really going to cut it.

I've thought about starting writing some fictional stuff. I'm pretty good with that sort of thing. Unfortunately, despite the feeling of meaninglessness, I also seem to be lacking ambition.

There are things I could be doing (like writing) and things I should probably be doing (like looking for a job to earn me some money for the next couple months) but my ambition level is shot. I just can't seem to bring myself to do ANYTHING beyond the things I'm doing now without some sort of outside assistance.

Hopefully I can snap myself out of this whatever it is soon as it really sucks. It's almost as if I've associated being in this house with pointlessness in some way so it's really hard to do anything meaningful while I'm here.

I'm thinking of going to bed soon. It's not cause I'm tired, it's just cause I'm bored and it seems to be the simplest way to deal with the boredom.

Stupid funk...